Whimsy. If not now, when?

 

I am grateful to have seen a mallard duck flying beside our window as we drove to South Dakota on Saturday afternoon. I’d never had that experience before, and it was a treat.

 

I am grateful for time to laugh with Karissa on the phone on Sunday afternoon.

I am grateful that my daughter is such a wonderful Mommy and takes four children under 5 swimming on a Sunday afternoon.

I am grateful for the simple curved loveliness of a soft serve ice cream cone.

I am grateful for the ability to see the deep green in corn plants growing in the fields of Missouri and Nebraska.

 

I am grateful for manicured lawns in a small town – it was so enjoyable to drive through Adrian, Minnesota and see how the residents of this beautiful town take care of their homes and yards.

I am grateful for the surprise of talking to Delores on Saturday when my Dad called me back.

I am grateful for strangers who want to share their new corvette with us in the parking lot of a McDonalds.

I am grateful to have seen the serenity of a hawk sitting in a tree.

I am grateful for the grandeur of a stately old ash tree.

I am grateful to watch charter buses pass by and not be in one.

I am grateful for the privilege of watching a little sister eagerly wait outside the bus for her big sister to disembark, and then seeing the burst of excitement when she finally sees Kyra, culminating in a huge hug.

I am grateful for the awesomeness of cathedrals. This happens to be St. Joseph’s Cathedral in Sioux Falls on Saturday night.

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I am grateful for Sam and having my hand held by him in the silence as the miles go by.

I am grateful for the memories that a musty smell of a basement brings to mind – Wellsford Church and Grandpa Johnson’s cellar.

I am grateful for clean public restrooms.

Whimsy needs to be fully experienced to be fully known. Whimsy doesn’t care if you are the driver or the passenger; all that matters is that you are on your way. – Bob Goff

I am grateful for a children’s message that involved streamers and party hats and party horns and balloons, for hearing little ones happily squeal when invited to blow bubbles in church.

I am grateful for the delight of hearing Norwegian accents and being the oddball who doesn’t have one.

I am grateful to have seen the bluffs in Missouri, Nebraska, and Iowa.

I am grateful that my brother took my Dad to a shooting range – what an experience for him!

I am grateful for the lesson on “whimsy” from Bob Goff and his book, “Love Does.”

 

I am grateful for Kristi’ s message yesterday about Pentecost and embracing chaos and mess and noise and LIFE in the church.

I am grateful for the brutal honesty of little ones and their inability to keep a happy secret.

I am grateful for car squeegees with a good sponge and a stiff but not too stiff rubber blade. Oh, and clean, soapy water in buckets attached to the gas pumps.

 

 

I am grateful for the sweetness of Max.

I am grateful to be home. There’s no place like home.

I am grateful for the relief and peace I feel when I talk to Geri. I love having that kind of friend…even though we hadn’t spoken for 2+ years, it was like it was yesterday and time had not passed.

I am grateful for my book, “One Thousand Gifts,” by Ann Voskamp.  I love books that make me “happy cry.”

 

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And finally, I am so very grateful for the opportunity to go to Minnesota on a random, whimsical, spontaneous trip on Saturday to meet one of “our pastors” from Adam’s challenge: to pray for her and her congregations for 30 days. Her name is Kristi, and she is the minister for two United Methodist congregations in rural southwest Minnesota. She sent Sam and I an email on Friday while we sat on the bus slowly making our way home from the choir trip. She shared with us how excited she was for Sunday’s message on the Pentecost and the birth of the church. A seed was planted, and at about 1 pm on Saturday afternoon, we decided to hop in the truck and take another road trip to attend her church on Sunday morning. What a wonderful blessing it was for us to see firsthand her work, her congregation in Adrian, and hear her speak with an excitement and a passion for revival of the church. We both feel like this just might be our “niche” and a way we can serve the Lord and serve our church’s mission, too. There’s absolutely nothing like the feeling of wanting to bless someone else and ending up receiving more blessings than we could have given…thank you, Kristi, for being such a beautiful example to us this weekend. This quote makes me think of you:

 You are where you are, for such a time as this – not to make an impression, but to make a difference. – Ann Voskamp

 

In everything, give thanks. I am thank-full.

 

I am grateful for:

The majesty of an eastern Colorado thunderstorm seen from a distance.The cloud is so massive and stunning.

The breathtaking feeling of seeing a full rainbow in its brilliance.

A small windmill in the solitude of a pasture, circling gently in the breeze.

The way the grasses lean in sync as if part of the audience of heaven, directing our attention to the Master of the wind.

A wonderful hotel to stay in last night, if only for four hours of sleep. If ever in Colorado Springs, I highly recommend MCM Elegante. I had never heard of it, either. This was what greeted us at the entry.

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The quiet of the bus first thing in the morning, when all of the singers and their chaperones are trying to finish the short night of rest.

The privilege of speaking with my Father each morning and evening, specifically praying for Tom, Rick, Mark, Russ, Lyndy, and Kristi, “our pastors” from Kentucky and Minnesota, for my daughters and their families, for our dads, and for my new CASA child. (I’ll call her Cari when I speak of her…)

The privilege of praying for each of my kids in my group: Riley, Albert, Grace, Jake, Avery, and MacKenzie.

For the anticipation of being home tonight.

For the naughtiness of a little granddaughter who has yet to learn the value of a library book, because it is evidence that she is so small and the world has a spark plug in its future:

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For the barely tickle of a roly poly or ladybug crawling on skin.

For new friends Jenna and Sophia, two young women who have touched my life profoundly this week.

For a little dachshund (wiener dog) sitting on a chair next to his owner in the breakfast room, so well-behaved and waiting patiently for his breakfast, too. He made me miss Ginger, Delores…

For buddy cards that have been written each day. “Baby Bear,” our new adopted daughter/friend, wrote this one for me that made me melt.

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For the delicious smells of bacon and coffee.

For beautiful blue eyes that still make my heart sing.

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And for the way that counting these blessings one by one slows time down and allows me to savor each moment and each gift. Life is too short to hurry through and become so busy we stop enjoying the blessing of breathing and fully living. I am thank-full.

I’m a counselor with Lysol and I WILL use it.

 

I am grateful for a bed to sleep in every night of this trip, rather than a hard concrete floor or a gym floor…or a seat on the bus.

I am grateful for junior high girls who eagerly volunteer to help.

I am grateful for Lysol on a bus full of junior high boys.

I am grateful for the awesome beauty of rock formations at Echo Canyon.

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I am grateful for little soaps and lotions that are free.

I am grateful for the opportunity to walk around the plaza at St.Francis Cathedral in Santa Fe this morning and visit with several native Indian artisans.

I am grateful for random fun standing in a convenience store waiting on a restroom, hearing Sophia speak Portuguese and Anna speak Latin.

I am grateful for enough clean clothes to end the trip tomorrow.

I am grateful for sweet conversations with some elderly residents of an assisted living facility this morning.

I am grateful for flashlights.

I am grateful for the warmth of a sunbeam on a crisp, cool morning.

I am grateful for the interesting beauty of adobe architecture.

I am grateful for the fact that these kids have gotten to know Sam and love him.

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I am grateful for emails from Rick, Kristi, and Lisa.

I am grateful for sleeping middle schoolers.

I am grateful that I have such strong daughters and grateful that Karissa made it through the morning with help from the nurses and really wonderful children who knew to be good while Mommy was busy.

I am grateful for the miracle of Anjalie.

 

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And I am grateful for the snack box on the bus. One more day of total indulgence and chips to my heart’s content, and then it’s back to reality.

One nail at a time. Hammering away…

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This is an excerpt from “One Thousand Gifts.” This made me cry, made me want to shout, “Yes!!! I get it!” She has a beautiful way of explaining why I write this grateful each day…

Some days I pick up a camera and it’s a hammer.
The lens is my ink, for cameras have sensor eyes, and pixels record. I slide it into a pocket, a thin point-and-shoot, and find another way to chronicle, to force the lids open; another way to receive the moment with thanks reverential. When he comes in from the barn, the Farmer finds me with my hammer in hand, leaning over a plate of cheese grated and sitting in sunlight. It is true. I do feel foolish. I mean, it’s curls of mozzarella and cheddar piled high in a pond of golden day. And I’m changing the settings for macro, pulling in for a close-up frame. He’s fed 650 sows with one string arm this morning, flicked on a welder and melded steel. It is quite possible that the God-glory of a ring of shredded cheese may be lost on him.
It isn’t.
“I like finding you like this.” He wraps one arm around my bowed middle, draws me close and up into him strong.
“Crazy like this?” I blush silliness, and he brushes close with the four day stubble. He laughs.
“Perfect like this.” He nods toward the cheese plate. “You being happy in all these little things that God gives. It makes me very happy.”
Happy in all these little things that God gives. Ridiculously happy over slips of cheese. That I am, and it’s wild, and, oh, I am the one who laughs. Me! Changed! Surprised by joy!
Joy is the realest reality, the fullest life, and joy is always given, never grasped. God gives gifts and I give thanks and I unwrap the gift given: joy.
It is true, I never stop wanting to learn the hard [gratitude] for the deathbeds and dark skies and the prodigal sons. But I accept this is the way to begin, and all hard things come in due time and with practice. Yet now wisps of cheese tell me gentle that this is he first step into [gratitude’s] miracle. Gratitude for the seemingly insignificant – a seed – this plants the giant miracle. The miracle of [gratitude], like the Last Supper, is in the eating of crumbs, the swallowing down one mouthful. Do not disdain the small. The whole of the life – even the hard – is made up of the minute parts, and if I miss the infinitesimals, I miss the whole. These are the new language lessons, and I live them out. There is a way to live the big of giving thanks in all things. It is this: to give thanks in this one small thing. The moments will add up.
I, too, had read it often, the oft-quoted verse: “And give thanks for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ” (Ephesians 5:20). And I, too, would nod and say straight-faced, “I’m thankful for everything.” But in this counting gifts, to one thousand, more, I discover that slapping a sloppy brush of thanksgiving over everything in my life leaves me deeply thankful for very few things in my life.
A lifetime of sermons on “thanks in all things” and the shelves of sagging books on these things and I testify: life-changing gratitude does not fasten to a life unless nailed through with one very specific nail at a time.
Little nails and a steady hammer can rebuild a life – [gratitude] precedes the miracle.
I snap a picture of cheese.

I am grateful for the use of this IPad on the bus.

I am grateful for the sound of horseshoes hitting the stake.

I am grateful for a quiet walk in a park, hearing only the crunch of pine cones under foot.

I am grateful for a soft pillow to lay my head each night.

I am grateful for the smile of a young man at a soup kitchen.

I am grateful for sweet words from Grace.

I am grateful for Dani and her concern for the kids and for me.

I am grateful for a seasoned young man whose name is Sy Scarborough, the owner of the Bar D Chuckwagon Dinner and Show. Sam and I were blessed to meet him and visit for quite awhile last night before dinner. I shared with him about visiting the Flying W Ranch in Colorado Springs a few years ago with a choir and with some friends in the Springs area, and my favorite song had been, “I Am My Own Grandpa.” He told us that they had performed that song the night before and was not in the rotation for the evening’s show. And then, in the middle of the show, he came out onto the stage and surprised me by announcing what I had shared, and he sang it for me.

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I am grateful for a new piece of art that Sam bought for me at the last stop. It is a painting of two chickadees in a branch loaded with berries. It could have been painted just outside our front door. I can’t wait to get it hung in the yellow bedroom.

And I am grateful for a camera on my cell phone, so that I could capture the southern Colorado scenery, my version of curls of cheese today.

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I think I can, I think I can, I think I can…

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Today, I am grateful for my new favorite book. It is called “One Thousand Gifts,” by Ann Voskamp, and my cousin, Sandy Thompson, introduced me to this incredible gem.

I am grateful for great kids on this choir trip who are so easy to chaperone and are no trouble at all.

I am grateful for the time when the hotel room door shuts and all I hear is…quiet. No bus engine, no DVD blaring over the speaker system, no noisy laughter and constant talk from the back of the bus, no music, no whistling from the driver up front. Just quiet. Quiet is underrated. Quiet is beautiful.

I am grateful for hotel breakfasts. Especially those with waffle irons.

I am grateful for the presence of the Holy Spirit on Sunday morning as we sat at the Interfaith Chapel in Vail. The church sits next to a roaring creek and the sanctuary has a bank of windows all along the creek, so that as you sit and soak in the message and the Presence of God, you have a beautiful view of His creation. Behind the pulpit, there is a massive window that gives the congregation a picture of the deep blue spring sky and an aspen tree, complete with the round silver dollar leaves that shimmer in the morning breeze. It was so peaceful…and as Father Brooks gave his message about stepping out in faith and truly living the words of the Nicene Creed, “I believe in God the Father, Maker of Heaven and earth,” I was so grateful to feel the Holy Spirit in this place of worship, so grateful for the privilege of hearing this particular message in this particular setting, so grateful for this time and place on this journey. It was a gift.

I am grateful for the beauty of the mountains, the Colorado River, the trees, the puffy white clouds against a vibrant blue sky.

I am grateful for the sounds of the birds, the raging water, the crunch of gravel.

I am grateful for Jenna. As we got into groups of six to ride the tram up the mountain on Sunday afternoon to ride the alpine slide, I was my typical cowardly self and informed everyone that if they were sitting next to me, I apologized in advance for the fingernail marks I would most likely leave in their legs. Sam sat on one side, and Jenna sat on the other. We started up the mountain, and just so you know, it was windy, and when asked what might help to calm my fear of heights, I replied, “Just sing or something and take my mind off of the fear.” Scott sang with me, “I love the mountains, I love the rolling hills, I love the flowers, I love the daffodils…” And from out of nowhere, quiet, shy, sweet 7th grade Jenna startled us all by belting out “Taylor, the Latte Boy!” in as perfect a Broadway voice as I’ve heard in a long time. It was stunning. And she changed the words to fit Sam and I: “Sa-am, the Latte Boy! I love him, I love him, I love him!”  It was another gift that I want to remember forever. And Jenna helped me reach the top without hyperventilating.

I am grateful for my counselor group. These students have opened up to Wendy and I and have allowed themselves to be vulnerable enough to let us have a glimpse into their souls, and as I think of each of them and pray for them by name every day, I am humbled by their attitudes, their desire to be a part of this group, and their genuine care and concern for each other. Riley, Albert, Grace, Jake, Avery, and MacKenzie. God, please keep your hand of protection on their lives and fill them with more of You.

I am grateful that I have been paired with Wendy to lead this group. She is such a blessing to me. After hearing just a small sliver of her life story, I can already tell it was a divine pairing. God knew I needed Wendy for this time and place. I love that she is sensitive and easily brought to tears, just like me. I am grateful that she loves her girl as much and as fiercely as I love my girls.

I am grateful that God knows. “Many things about tomorrow, I don’t seem to understand, but I know who holds the future, and I know who holds my hand.” For you, Karissa.

I am grateful that although we have had many bus problems on this trip, the group has been flexible and has flowed with the adjustments that have had to be made.  I am grateful for our bus drivers, especially Dave, who has had to deal with the bus problems and is still having to drive the little engine that thinks it can but really can’t.

Psalm 50:23: “He who sacrifices thank offerings honors me, and he prepares the way so that I may show him the salvation of God.”  Thanksgiving – giving thanks in everything – prepares the way that God might show us His fullest salvation in Christ…our salvation in Christ is real, yet the completeness of that salvation is not fully realized in a life until the life realizes the need to give thanks. In everything.  This is from the book I am reading…after Ann read the story of the ten lepers in Luke 17. Only one came back to thank Jesus, and His response was, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.”

Thank you, Lord. Thank you for the smallest of these gifts, as well as the ones that are so overwhelmingly large. May I never again go through a day without being grateful.

 

Selfish vs. selfless. Time to reflect and re-adjust.

 

I am so grateful for a long phone call with Karissa last night, so grateful that she is taking care of herself, that she can laugh at the absurdities of raising little ones, and that she calls her Mom just to talk.

I am grateful for an email from Kristi, another new connection resulting from the challenge our pastor gave to us!

I am grateful I don’t have the loudest sneeze.

I am grateful to have been reminded of my selfishness this morning. It is a good thing when Sam gives me a little kick in the pants to bring me out of my hole, and then it’s an even better thing when a co-worker unintentionally backs him up. I think it is not a coincidence and I am fairly certain that God directed them both to say what they said in order to hit the point home. I need to intentionally be self-less, not self-ish.

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I am grateful for the SWEETEST email from Geri. I AM CALLING YOU DURING THIS TRIP, Geri. I have wanted to call so many times, but I keep forgetting to put your number in my phone! Doing it right…now.

I am grateful for a pancake on the porch this morning.

I am grateful for this video promo that makes me grateful and anxious for the new sermon series.

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I am grateful for Ken, who offered to give us a ride today, and for Rachel, who IS going to give us a ride today.

I am grateful for our neighbor who will help Sam out on Monday while we are gone. Good neighbors shouldn’t hide behind closed doors. This summer, I need to work on being a good neighbor.

I am grateful for Mary, who shared this very sweet, short video with me that made me say, “Awwwww!” because she knew it would make me say “Awwww!” It’s about 30 seconds or so, but watch it to the end to see why I said, “Awwww!”

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I am grateful for Joyce, who will help me out on Monday and take my paycheck to the bank.

And I am grateful for this devotion that began my day. Thank you, Lord.

Time with Me cannot be rushed. When you are in a hurry, your mind flitters back and forth between Me and the tasks ahead of you. Push back the demands pressing in on you; create a safe space around you, a haven in which you can rest with Me. I also desire this time of focused attention and I use it to bless you, strengthening and equipping you for the day ahead. Thus, spending time with Me is a wise investment.

Bring Me the sacrifice of your precious time. This creates sacred space around you – space permeated with My Presence and My Peace.

I am grateful that I feel sick to my stomach.

 

 

I am grateful for one more evening to get ready for the choir trip.

I am grateful for the sounds of happy birds in the early morning, gravel crunching underfoot, and of my boss eating pork rinds in the next office.

I am grateful for the feeling of the stylist combing/brushing my hair.

I am grateful for an absence of that leg cramp today.

I am grateful for the memory of the taste of American Beauty Chicken Dumplets.

I am grateful for this ill feeling after reading the details of my child’s case. It makes me want to run FROM, which is exactly why I need to run TOWARDS. Too many people in her life have abandoned her, and she needs a cheerleader and one who has learned to listen, not yell. 

 

I am grateful for the privilege of praying for Kristy, Lyndy, Rick & Mark, Russ, and Tom.

I am grateful for a ceiling fan to sleep under.

I am grateful for one of my devotions today – well, all of them, but particularly this one:

 I am with you, watching over you constantly. I am Emmanuel (God with you); My Presence enfolds you in radiant Love. Nothing, including the brightest blessings and darkest trials, can separate you from Me. Some of My children find Me more readily during dark times, when difficulties force them to depend on Me. Others feel closer to Me when their lives are filled with good things. They respond with thanksgiving and praise, thus opening wide the door to My Presence.

I know precisely what you need to draw nearer to Me. Go through each day looking for what I have prepared for you. Accept every event as My hand-tailored provision for your needs. When you view your life this way, the most reasonable response is to be thankful. Do not reject any of My gifts; find Me in every situation.

And I am grateful for a Chick-Fil-A shake. Thank you, Collins family.

I can learn a lot from someone who has the right attitude.

 

I just received this email from a co-worker. Each sentence is a wealth of wisdom. So, this is an addendum to my grateful for today. 

Subject:  I’ve learned I get depressed when a candidate turns us down…but this wise woman makes me rethink my mood today. – Joyce, one of my co-workers

“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a “living” is not the same thing as making a “life.” I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn. I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” ― Maya Angelou

If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude. – Maya Angelou

 

Today, I am grateful for a rich and diverse circle of influence in my life. In the past year or so, several people have made such a connection in my life that have changed my outlook, my direction of thinking, my view of this life and the world in which I live. Here are a few who are on my mind this morning: 

  • Rick Johnson, a United Methodist pastor and new friend in Kentucky with whom we’ve connected through email because of a simple challenge from our pastor to write a note of encouragement. He took the time to respond, and a friendship has begun.
  • A man I do not know but who challenges me to think outside my box through his blog, a blog that a former student, Cindy Balding Glover, introduced to me through Facebook.  Here is his latest:

I’m Not Sad That Maya Angelou Died

  • 98-year-old Louene, one of my Bingo friends, and soon to turn 99, who shared with me last night a glimpse into her loneliness and her sadness and disappointment with her two grandchildren who live less than 30 minutes away but never come to visit her and rarely if ever, call. She is an avid KU basketball and Royals baseball fan, loves to play Bingo, is mentally more sharp than I, and despite having lost her only child, a daughter, to illness four years ago, is happy and content. That visit last night taught me a lot… Take the time, MAKE the time, because life is short.

 

  • My trainers at CASA, my experience with CASA as a new advocate before this challenge ever begins, and the fact that there are opportunities all around me to reach out and be the hands and feet of Jesus to those who have experienced such internal and external hurt and pain. My child will be a teenage girl. I now know her name. I know the basics of her story and her abandonment. I am grateful that I have a Savior who is preparing my heart to walk beside her and with her as she learns how to face a new life as an adult. I am grateful that I have a passionate supervisor who will guide me as I serve this young woman and the CASA organization. I am grateful for examples that somehow surface in the most unusual places that solidify my decision to become a CASA, like this one last night – the TV was on less than 15 minutes as I folded laundry, but this is what I happened to watch:

Jaycob Curlee

 

I am grateful for an extra treat this morning of seeing a hummingbird. First time we’ve seen one at the house. Time to figure out Mom’s red juice recipe.

And I am grateful for a wreath hanger that I finally found, so that I could hang my Mother’s Day wreath that Karissa made for me. The bow at the top represents her because it is her favorite “pattern,” and the giraffe patterned bow at the bottom represents Katrina, because she collected the animal when she was a little girl, and we’ve always thought of Katrina as the “giraffe collector.” I love that my wreath is now visible for the whole neighborhood to admire.

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